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Post by Neo Queen Serenity on Jan 20, 2009 1:35:44 GMT -5
Usagi had been a good steward of her time since hanging up the phone. She had made a very firm order to get Mamoru to her quarters, and she certainly wouldn't greet him disheveled and upset. No, there would be no tears for him this time. No hysterics.
She washed her face, reapplied her makeup, and changed into dark denim and a form-fitting, v-neck cashmere sweater. No, she would look perfectly polished. Nothing would be out of place.
The servants had cleared the dinner things away, and put some kind of oil on the table to hide the gouges, topping it with a linen tablecloth. Usagi reclined in one of the chairs in the sitting area, it was an open floor plan. She was keeping herself occupied, doing line-item vetoes on legislation, but her mind was whirling. Her fairy-tale romance had just been smashed in shards, not unlike her unfortunate water glass.
The sad thing was, she wasn't entirely sure what was going to come out of her mouth, how she was going to react. All she knew is that she had never felt this strongly before. Who knew what could happen? Even she couldn't say.
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Post by Chiba Mamoru on Jan 20, 2009 2:15:49 GMT -5
Mamoru sighed to himself as he made his way down the hall, lost in his own thoughts and barely paying attention to what was going on around him. He was rather disappointed with the fact that the Shitennou couldn’t get along better then they had during his last conversation with them. They weren’t really acting any differently then he was use to seeming them act, its just that during the seven years he had known Usagi and the senshi he had gotten use to the sort of close bond of friendship that they shared. Somewhere during that time he had come to wish that his own men could at the very least be friends. He knew that they probably all cared about each other in their own way, but that wasn’t the same thing as being comrades. It seemed as if they were all going to reawaken in this lifetime, a fact that both worried and gladdened him. He was actually glad for the possibility of having his Shitennou, his friends, once more with him ... but at the same time he knew that there was bound to be trouble because of it.
Which of course brought him back to the reason he was currently making his way toward Usagi’s office. He had little doubt about what his ‘summons’ had been about. Rei must have gotten to Usagi and told her about the occurrences of this morning. He didn’t need to have heard that conversation to know that Rei had probably convinced Usagi that he had betrayed her by not telling her about the souls of the Shitennou. By the time Mamoru had reached the door to the office, he had managed to work himself out of depression and right back in to anger at the fiery priestess. He glared at the door before opening it and stepping into the office, making certain to shut the door firmly behind him. The last thing he needed was for Usagi’s staff to hear whatever it was she was planning on saying.
Once the door was firmly shut and locked, Mamoru turned back to look at his lovely fiancé. His gaze softened a little as he took in her appearance. She was as lovely as she always was, though it didn’t escape his attention that she was showing him her ‘queenly side’ and that irked him somewhat. He didn’t want to talk to Neo Queen Serenity, he wanted to talk to his beloved Usako ...
Forcing his thoughts back to the situation at hand, Mamoru decided to act as if nothing was wrong. Calm and collected, dignified to the last, feelings and thoughts carefully hidden away, that was how he dealt with things best, and so he simply smiled at Usagi and murmured, “Usako ... you called?”
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Post by Neo Queen Serenity on Jan 20, 2009 2:25:38 GMT -5
Though it seemed as if she had been waiting for this moment for eternity, Usagi still jumped as the door opened and Mamoru stepped in. She tossed aside the paperwork, slowly standing up. He was so handsome, especially with the city lights behind him, shining in through the window. She felt her heart leap into her throat. His smile melted her, his little nickname for her...
It simply couldn't be true. She knew him, she knew this man. He loved her. He couldn't do these awful things.
"Rei-chan was here," Usagi said quietly. "I'm sure you can imagine what about."
And suddenly, it came to her. It was Beryl! It must be some kind of lingering effect. Yes, it all made sense now. It was a bit of the aftermath of the brainwashing he had endured. Of course! Why didn't she think of this earlier?
"It's going to be okay, Mamo-chan," she said, her face breaking out into a loving smile. Usagi crossed the room, reaching out to touch his cheek lovingly. To think how close they had come...
"I know this is just some kind of fluke, from Beryl, that made you do this. You wouldn't keep something like this from me of your own accord," she said with absolute trust, blue eyes shining up at him. Usagi felt guilty for all of this talk with Rei about Mamoru keeping this to himself. She should have stood up for him, instead! I really should have more faith in him, he would never willingly do this to me...
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Post by Chiba Mamoru on Jan 20, 2009 3:18:55 GMT -5
Mamoru resisted the urge to grind his teeth together at the mention of Rei and what she had discussed with Usagi when she was there. Thoughts of strangling the red skirted warrior flew out of his mind the moment Usagi graced him with her loving smile and crossed the room to touch his cheek lovingly. This was not exactly the reaction he had been expecting and it made him feel just a little unnerved. “U..Usako, what ...?”
However, the moment she mentioned the word Beryl Mamoru understood what was going on. She thought he had hidden away his Shitennou because of some effect of his previous brainwashing. Mamoru hated to disappoint her, but he wasn’t under Beryl’s influence and as much as it killed him to break her trust in him he couldn’t allow her to continue with this theory of hers.
Although somewhere Mamoru did realize that all of this trouble could have been prevented if he had mentioned the Shitennou’s existence, he still believed that he hadn’t done anything wrong. Therefore, he still blamed Rei for being forced into this position of having to hurt Usagi.
Mamoru took a step backwards, mentally preparing himself for the hurt he expected to see in her eyes as he murmured, “I’m not under Beryl’s influence Usako. I haven’t been for a very long time. She didn’t keep from me mentioning the Shitennou to you.”
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Post by Neo Queen Serenity on Jan 20, 2009 3:28:16 GMT -5
Her hope was stillborn as he stepped away from her touch. Usagi looked briefly as if he had just slapped her in the face, and then a veil fell over her expression, her eyes hardening into chips of blue ice. "I see." It hurt just as much the second time around. He wasn't lying, or deluded, she could see it in his eyes.
It was her Mamoru, ever collected and composed. How much was hidden beneath that composed veneer? She had always assumed that since they had been through so much, that she knew so much of him that she knew it all. But there were depths that were unplumbed. What other fatal secrets were concealed from her?
The anger filled the void as the surprise receded. The hurt made it even more bitter. Usagi slowly drew back her hand, letting it fall to her side. Fine. She didn't want to touch him now, anyway.
"I let Rei tell her story. I suppose it's only fair that I give you a chance to tell yours." Reasonable. She was so angry, and yet being so reasonable. It was a portent of what was to come. She didn't understand why she was being so clinical about the direst situation in her life, or so it seemed.
But she owed him that, as much. And he owed it to her, too. To finally tell the truth, if he could bring himself to. No, perhaps she did not know Chiba Mamoru at all.
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Post by Chiba Mamoru on Jan 20, 2009 4:01:29 GMT -5
It was worse then he had anticipated and he almost reached out for her, as he watched her eyes harden into chips of blue ice and her hand fall to her side. He almost fell to his knees to beg for forgiveness, but he didn’t. His pride wouldn’t let him admit to something that he didn’t believe he had done wrong, not even when his heart was breaking at the look in her eyes.
Mamoru searched for the right words to fix this, the words that would allow Usagi to see his side of things. He knew that there were a million and one reasons why he was right and Rei was wrong, but as he stood there he was having trouble finding even one.
“The Shitennou are important to me Usako, just as important as your senshi are to you. You trusted me when you brought me back from Beryl’s side, I couldn’t do any less for them. You gave me the chance to make up for the things that I was forced to do, they deserved the same chance to atone for whatever crimes they were forced to commit while following Beryl's commands."
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Post by Neo Queen Serenity on Jan 20, 2009 4:15:22 GMT -5
He really didn't get it. That was thought that struck Usagi the most. Instead of explaining his behavior, he was giving excuses-- very well-said excuses designed to play on her emotions and personality-- her willingness to forgive, to trust, to believe in people-- all of the things that gave her pause, to question if he had been under Beryl's influence.
"I don't doubt any of that." Usagi settled herself in the chair, and gestured for him to take a seat. "If I was so unforgiving of their actions in the past, Jadeite would be under arrest right now. But he's not, because you're right, they all deserve a chance to do the right thing and prove themselves, same as anybody else. This is about so much more than what they did under the auspices of Beryl."
She suddenly felt quite fatigued. Why did she have to explain this to him? Usagi hadn't quite known what to expect, but somehow she expected an apology, embarrassment. She would fuss at him and storm off and give the silent treatment for a few days and he would send her a dozen roses and the whole affair would just blow over.
But, life was continuing to surprise her, that was not going to be happening anytime soon. "I suppose I'll tell you what I told Rei-chan. That if one of my ministers or staff had been keeping the existence of former enemies secret, or neglecting to mention it-- whatever turn of the phrase best suits your conscience-- for years, and taking advice from them-- what do you suppose would happen to said person? Think about it. Even if this person believed absolutely that these people deserved a second chance and were not responsible for their actions, what would happen if that person were caught?" It was a rhetorical question, Usagi was sure Mamoru could think through the various laws.
"Perhaps that will help you grasp the severity of this situation." She would not take action, of course, she couldn't do that. But he had to understand...
"I can be overly demanding at times. I will own up to that. But I do let you have your space. You have your work, and your friends, and I don't pretend that I have a right to every moment of your time or every thought in your head. There is a monumental difference between having to inform me every time you brush your teeth, and having to inform me that you have the souls of the shitennou. That is just one of the things you do not keep to yourself."
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Post by Chiba Mamoru on Jan 20, 2009 4:57:25 GMT -5
Mamoru hesitated a mere moment before taking the chair offered to him. At first he felt a tad bit hopeful as she mentioned that she did understand that his Shitennou deserved a chance to redeem themselves. However, his hope soon died as she continued speaking.
Treason, that was what she was implying. This conversation was definitely starting to annoy him now. Usagi knew him well enough to know that he would never betray her in that way, or at least he thought she ought to know him by then. Seven years together, not counting their past lives, Usagi should know good and well that he was not a treasonous person. It might be true that he wasn’t the best at sharing his thoughts and feelings with her, he had been on his own long before he met her and habits died hard. He didn’t find it easy to share his innermost thoughts with just anybody, but she knew how much he loved her. She knew him better then anybody, with the exception of the Shitennou. It struck him as unfair that she couldn’t trust in the belief that he hadn’t meant to hurt her, that she would listen to whatever Rei had told her before to get her to think such things.
Mamoru stiffened in his chair, pride once more refusing to allow him to give in to something he didn’t believe he had done wrong. Once more the anger that he had felt moments before for Rei flickered into life again, though this time it was somewhat directed toward Usagi in retaliation for the imagined hurt he felt.
Still doing his best to remain as calm and collected as ever, Mamoru growled, “I have not committed a treason against you Usagi. The Shitennou returned to me long before you became a queen. I didn’t mention it to anyone because at the time I didn’t think it was important. If I had known they would ever reawaken it would have been a different matter.”
He paused a moment before adding, “At any rate, the very fact that you consider them former enemies would have given me pause to tell you about them. They were my friends Usagi, I remembered them from the past. I remembered the men that they had been before, but you and your friends only remembered them from this time. You only remembered them as the Dark Kingdom warriors that had recently tried to kill you, you wouldn't have understood my trust in them.”
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Post by Neo Queen Serenity on Jan 20, 2009 5:20:35 GMT -5
"I didn't say that you did," Usagi retorted coolly. "I said that to inform of you just how big this is, that if it was anybody else who did it you know exactly what would have happened to them. In fact, in such a hypothetical scenario I imagine that I would be the one willing to forgive, to not want to be so harsh, and you would tell me not to be so trusting."
Irony could be as bitter as wrath, and Usagi found herself perturbed by the response he gave her. The man growled at her. No, she kept hearing it over and over again. I, I, I. Me, me, me. He had never really considered her feelings, or the feelings of her senshi. What it came down to was what had been most convenient for him and his shitennou.
"You may not understand it this way, but you have betrayed me and the trust of the senshi. I can say that with absolute certainty because we alone are the arbiters of our confidences. As not for not thinking it was important at the time, that shows a serious lack of judgment. Frankly, I don't give a damn if you thought they would come back, or not. It doesn't matter. We still deserved to know, regardless."
Her face was set in stone, but her eyes flashed silver with anger as she listened to him deliver excuse after excuse. No, he really didn't understand at all. And the absolute gall-- he wouldn't even listen to her, and she was being so patient about everything. Arrogance-- was this why Rei had been so adamant about not following Endymion's orders? Usagi found herself perturbed by this side of her fiancé.
"Oh, so you have even more information about our past lives that could be critical as well, but you kept that to yourself because it was that much more convenient for you and the shitennou. It's nice to finally comprehend where your priorities lie." Usagi's voice was absolutely frigid, and the temperature in the room seemed to descend rapidly.
"Do not patronize me. First of all, you don't know how I, or the senshi, would have reacted. I don't know where you come by the audacity to tell us how we would and would not feel. And even if you were a born empath and knew in advance every thought that would cross our brain, you still. Should. Have. Told. Us. This is just one of those things that you don't have to right to keep all to yourself, because it involves the lives of other people but them and yourself-- whether they were resurrected or not, or we remember our past memories, or not, regardless how you believed we would have acted-- that doesn't change one iota of your responsibility to tell the truth about this. And no amount of good intentions, or excuses, or rationales, or equivocating is ever going to change that!"
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Post by Chiba Mamoru on Jan 20, 2009 14:46:56 GMT -5
Mamoru glared at the woman before him. He was right, he knew he was, why couldn’t she see this? “It is an entirely different thing Usagi. If it happened now, that would be one thing, but like I said I had the Shitennou with me long before you became a queen. People don’t commit treasonous acts against teenage girls. There wasn’t a reason to tell you about them at the time and then later it just never came up.”
As he listened to her, his stubborn pride and the anger he felt refused to allow him to see that he might possible have been wrong. He refused to believe that he had betrayed anyone, let alone her and the senshi. He was fairly certain that she herself kept things from him, why then was it so hard to understand that he simply might not have felt comfortable sharing something so important to him.
“The things I know don’t concern you Usagi, not everything that happens to me does. There wasn’t any reason to inform you about anything that I might happen to know. If I am guilty of keeping anything from anyone, then it was to your senshi and not to you. However, I still say that at the time it wasn’t important.”
Mamoru was far too observant not to notice the frigid chill in both Usagi’s voice and the room itself. Somewhere inside he knew that he was only driving his beloved princess further away then she had ever been before and his heart begged him to stop, begged him to salvage this before things got too far out of hand. However, his stubborn pride continued to refuse him the chance to redeem himself.
“I am not patronizing you Serenity. I didn’t need to know how you would react. It was my decision whether to mention them or not and I chose not to. I was not then required to tell you every little thing that I might happen to do or what companions I chose to keep. It did not involve anyone other then the Shitennou and myself, just like it doesn’t concern me when you go to your senshi for whatever advice they happen to give you. It was between me and them, no one else.”
Mamoru retreated behind his own cold gaze, staring cooly back at the blonde queen before him. He didn’t seem fazed in the slightest at the anger in her eyes, the ice in her tone, or the words she was saying. He kept his tones cold and precise, deliberately using her formal name to make his words hit that much harder.
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Post by Neo Queen Serenity on Jan 20, 2009 15:29:10 GMT -5
"It's coming out now," Usagi pointed out, though she was becoming increasingly aware that her words were falling on deaf ears. The more he spoke, he more arrogant and closed-minded he revealed himself to be. "Yes, there was a reason to tell me and the senshi then as much as now. But tonight you don't seem able to think objectively and even conceive of what those reasons might be, even when it's been put to you quite plainly. And it never came up because you never brought it up. That is such a load of bull. Take some responsibility for your actions, reprehensible as they are! Don't talk in the passive voice-- you made a conscious choice not to tell me, for every single day of these past seven years. At least own your shit!"
She felt the wrath building up inside of her, pooling and bubbling until her entire body buzzed with the froth of fury, lapping up at her consciousness and eating away her fragile patience.
"It was absolutely important then, as it is now," she said quietly, but as calm as her words seemed, there was a razor-sharp edge to them that was cutting and fierce. "And more than being important in general, it is important to me. Since I am the woman you are weeks away from marrying, that should matter a great deal to you. But you are consistently demonstrating that does not." No, the only feelings and priorities that he continued to put first were his own.
She just shook her head, looking away from a moment. "You must be deaf. I opened this conversation by saying that I do not demand an account of every moment of time or your every thought. But I do need to know the big things-- like who you are. So yes, this is a betrayal of me. How do I know? Because I feel betrayed! Because this hurt me! And that's all it takes. I don't tell you everything that happens with the senshi, but you know who I take my advice from, the people that shape my understanding of the world and help define the parameters of my decisions! My friends are a part of who I am, and I have always been honest with you about that!"
And he continued with his arrogant composure and words, using formal titles designed to punch harder, thinking only of winning the argument instead of trying to find some common ground. Usagi had been furious before the meeting, that was true. She wanted her time to be angry and she wanted to express it. But she also wanted to understand, to grasp why he had done what he had, to find some way to get over this and push through, to make it work. She never thought she would come to this place...
For a moment, her veil of anger slipped away, and she just sat, returning his cold, combative glare with her own expression of abject disappointment in him, the unending hurt. "Who are you?"
She truly did not know this person. Usagi stood up, very slowly, and took the longest walk of her life towards the door. With each step, she felt as if another part of her was dying.
She thought about telling him that she had tried to listen, and understand, but that his ego was making that impossible. Usagi was pretty sure that that same ego would make it so he wouldn't take that very well, either. She wondered if she should let him know just how easy it would be to forget all of this... To take him at his word that there was no harm meant, and scold him not to do it again and then pretend the entire affair had never happened. They could go back to kisses and wedding planning... But even more of her seemed to die at that prospect.
"We both obviously have very strong feelings on this issue. This is one thing I cannot compromise on. And neither, it appears, can you. I had hoped to reach some sort of mutual understanding, but that seems naive, now." Usagi paused, turning the lock on the door, feeling her heart beat in her throat. "As a Queen and as a woman, I cannot marry nor pass the crown off to someone that I do not know nor cannot trust, or someone, who in a moment of critical conflict treats me with such derision and refuses to consider the feelings or interest of anyone but himself. I thought coming into this meeting that perhaps this action would be premature, but considering where this is going, I cannot in good faith continue to go through with this. Not with a man that I don't know, and I cannot love a man that I don't know, that has betrayed my trust."
Her heart screamed at her to stop as she twisted the ring off of her left finger. What are you doing?! This is Mamo-chan! MAMO-CHAN! Your dream, your WORLD! Yes, it would be so very easy to eat her words, throw herself into his arms and wish it all away... But she would always wonder, and Usagi could taste fear as she thought of being married, having something like this happen again... If they couldn't get through this while engaged, how could they possibly deal with things once married?
No, it was the hardest thing she had ever had to do, but it was the right one.
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Post by Chiba Mamoru on Jan 20, 2009 16:59:16 GMT -5
“Yes, I know it’s coming out now. That is not the point, the point was I didn’t know that it ever would. They were stones, their souls were all I had left. I never expected anything other then that.” She just refused to listen and this irritated him further. He heard what was saying, but he still didn’t believe that there had been any reason to tell her. Yes, now he could see that there had been a reason to tell her about their existence, but there hadn’t been before.”
He glared at Usagi, beyond angry that she wouldn’t understand what he was trying to say. He was owning up to the fact that he had made the decision not to tell her. He had said that earlier, she just wasn’t hearing him. “There wasn’t any reason to bring them up Usagi, no reason at all. What was I suppose to do, suddenly blurt out all this information at dinner some time? I can see it now. Usako, would you please pass the salt? Oh by the way, did you know that I had the souls of the Shitennou trapped in stones sitting on my table at home and I occasionally go to them for advice? That wouldn’t have gone very well and you know it.”
He watched her shake her head and look away a moment. However, when she looked back she continued on in the same fashion as before. Mamoru sighed in frustration before snapping irritably, “I’m not deaf Usagi. I heard what you said. I was not betraying you by not telling you about the Shitennou. Yes, they are very important to me. They give me the confidence to stand strong against a lot of things. However, when they first came to me I was not in the habit of sharing much of anything with anyone, even you. You know that perfectly well, you know that I haven’t ever had an easy time of sharing my innermost thoughts with anyone. You also know that over the years that has changed considerably. I’ve shared a lot of things with you Usagi and you know that very well. I’ve told you over and over how much you mean to me. The Shitennou simply never came up at that time. It never occurred to me to tell you about them, too many other things going on that felt more important at the time.”
He paused a moment, trying to figure out a way to make her understand. Finally he simply shook his head and sighed, “I honestly didn’t mean to hurt you. If it did then for that I do apologize. It just didn’t seem that important to me. You don’t need to tell me how important your friends are to you and I’m glad you have them. That wasn’t the point I was trying to make. I was just trying to say that I didn’t need to tell you everything about the friends I choose to keep, just like you didn’t need to tell me about yours.”
Doubt finally crept into Mamoru’s mind as he noticed the abject disappointment and the unending hurt that entered into her expression as the anger slipped away and she voiced her next question. What did she mean, who was he?
However, before his mind could even begin to grasp the situation she had stood up and began walking toward the door. He stared after her, a hint of confusion darkening his gaze as he tried to comprehend where she was going and what she was doing. Why would she be leaving in the middle of their argument?
He listened to what she was saying, and dread started to find its way into his heart as he watched her unlock the door and continue on about not being able to marry or pass the crown off to someone she didn’t know or trust. The words ‘I can not love a man’ hurt a lot, but it was watching her twist the ring off of her finger that caused the icy tendrils of fear to creep into his very soul. He couldn’t lose her because of this, could he?
He had half risen from his chair, one hand held out towards Usagi in an effort to stop her from leaving. An anguished cry torn from his very soul escaped him before he could even begin to really think about what was going on.
“Usako, please ...”
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Post by Neo Queen Serenity on Jan 20, 2009 17:22:24 GMT -5
Usagi chose not to reply to any of his further arguments. It was just the same old things he had said before, and if she would respond she would be saying exactly what she had already expressed to him. Mamoru just seemed incapable of understanding that sometimes telling the truth was difficult, but it was still the right thing to do. All his words did was convince her further of how he had acted on what was easy instead of what was right.
She knew that Mamoru wasn't the most open person, perhaps if he had explained himself like that to begin with they wouldn't be in this place. Usagi could empathize, but even as she understood she knew he had done her wrong. It was that simple.
But, she had to hand it to Mamoru, she certainly didn't expect his reaction to be quite so anguished. Or maybe he was just good at pretending. His plea only made her retreat further into herself. So now he wanted to call her Usako?
"It's pointless to argue anymore, we are getting nowhere. I believe I understand you, but that doesn't change the fact that what you did to senshi and I was wrong." She approached him, holding out the ring.
"As painful as this is, I'm glad it's happened, it has stopped me from making a grave mistake." Glad certainly wasn't the word for it, nor was relieved, for her heart ached with each word, even moment after her decision had passed. But it was the only word that approached her meaning.
"We have been through a lot together over the past seven years. And we have had our fair share of tests. We've faced death and enemies, and trying situations that sometimes seemed insurmountable. But this is not an external threat or issue. It gets to the core of who we are and the life we might have built together. You have shown me a side of you this night that terrifies me. I don't know this you, and I don't think I want to. You have broken my trust, and that of my sisters. You have treated with me scorn and condescension. And worst of all, you don't care about the effects your actions have besides how much trouble it's gotten you into, and the inconveniences that it's presented. What more is there to say? Other than: good-bye, Chiba-san." She gave him a tragic smile, still holding out the ring. It was ending, and suddenly he wanted to plead with her? He had pissed his chance away.
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Post by Chiba Mamoru on Jan 20, 2009 18:04:45 GMT -5
Each word that Usagi said only managed to wound Mamoru’s heart even further. However, it was really even that that hurt him the most. It was the fact that he had apparently hurt her so very much. That had never been his intention.
He numbly took the ring back from her, holding on to it almost like a lifeline. He couldn’t believe this had happened. His future seemed to be crumbling around him and it hurt more then he could bare. Mamoru wasn’t certain where he found the strength to do so, but he managed to pull himself together.
Calm and collected, dignified to the last, feelings and thoughts carefully hidden away, polite and composed, hiding behind a mask of indifference. That was the way he dealt with things, the only way he knew how ...
Fumbling only slightly, Mamoru pocketed the ring before looking up at Usagi and nodding briefly. “I suppose there really isn’t anything left to say then Usak ... Usagi. I’ll have my things moved to another part of the palace, unless you would like me to leave? I couldn’t do that right away, I’ve already given away my apartment but if you wish I will search for a new one.”
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Post by Neo Queen Serenity on Jan 20, 2009 18:10:46 GMT -5
There was no dramatic begging or weeping for forgiveness, no sweeping her off her feet... It was funny how much of her expectations of romance had been fueled by movies and shoujo manga.
Now, it was just two adults ending things. It was so much colder and more awkward than she ever would have imagined. For some reason, she had imagined he might fight for her. The more things went on, the more convinced she was that this was right.
"You don't have to move out now," she said with a polite smile. "Take all the time you need. Perhaps it would be prudent to move to another part of the palace, but I'm certainly not going to force you do anything right now. I'll leave it to your discretion to determine your living arrangements." She opened the door for him, wondering why it felt like she was underwater, unable to breathe.
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